Lesson #157: Oh the Nerves!

It's clear that I've developed some anxiety with respect to riding Ariel. The last few lessons (particularly the last one) have been challenging and most definitely have been testing what I've learned. Though kind and good with people, this mare is not forgiving of mistakes by her riders if they interfere with her job. She knows what her job is, loves to jump (she hates suppling exercises) and when she's on her A-game, she's incredible in the arena. But, if you're an old goat like me, you come with a bunch of physical baggage that is likely to interfere with your riding. As well, not spending enough time with her on the ground or even just riding is a problem unto itself since you have fewer chances to interact with her.

Knowing that I have anxiety helps a good deal. I got to the stable with the intention to keep my brain in check and remember that the training starts the minute I get there. Clearly Ariel is still testing our little herd dynamics to see who's coming out on top but I'm determined to have my way.

Put hair on that chest!

Our warm up was amazing. I was as clear as possible with my aids and ensuring that my right shoulder (when on the right rein) was turning naturally, and not falling in. It was working out beautifully. It was flowing so well because following the posting trot, we were asked to drop our stirrups and ride with our seat and lay off the hands. Next, put both reins in our outside hand and go round. Once everything seemed in control, flowing and limber, we moved into canter. My transitions are improving when I remember to include half-halts whenever I'm changing something up and Ariel doesn't launch forward as often.

When I'm riding the canter, I decide to try something different this time... ride in a half seat. Last time I tried sitting up more, I also pushed my seat further back too so ended up driving with my seat and as a result, Ariel was racing around while I was scared for my life because I was struggling with stopping her. The half seat keeps my seat off her back while maintaining an open chest with upper body erect. This was golden because it was clearly Ariel's preferred method for a rider to sit when she's going round. Even on the right rein, things were good and the flow was even and I had control.

So true!

To finish up our lesson, a line of 2 x jumps was set up. At the very mention of jumping, I transformed into a nervous wreck. But my determination to not allow my fear and anxiety interfere was strong enough to give me a boost to man up and try it. We trotted in and I was over thinking everything so my 2 point was pretty shoddy. We got the 5 strides in between the 2 jumps but my brain was just so loud on approach to the jump that it was literally distracting this time! My rides weren't too bad and I was able to keep control and set Ariel up as I wanted but I definitely need to breathe and remember that I need to start slowing down sooner.